As I said before, Lord Strahd has asked for my hand in marriage. He says that he refrained from expressing his intentions not out of disinterest but in attempts to be a proper gentleman, for us to learn of each other first. He claims not to be put off, either by my aasimar blood or my position as a knight of Abadar. He has even given his blessing for the formation of a church and bank.

I worry that his current consorts will not appreciate the addition of a new member among their ranks, especially as that seems to have caused some degree of trouble the last time... Strahd does not believe that it would be an issue and says that the others all like me well enough. It's... odd? But I have never been conventional and certainly not one to judge the lifestyles of others. When one is so long-lived, it certainly makes sense to find many who touch your heart. I'm glad he has found such companions over the centuries, and it is fortunate that all within the Castle get along fairly well.

My chief concern is that, as a vampire, he would prefer that all his spouses be vampires. The concept makes sense, I suppose. Communing with Abadar has led me to an understanding that my god would not be opposed to this change -- I could still serve him as one of his paladins in such a form, the way that Doru does. The real question is, again, am I willing to change myself so drastically for a husband? Although it had only been a short time that we travelled together, I daily find myself looking across the table or beside me at the fire to say something to Vasili, only to be saddened by his absence and wishing he were still there.

I have made a list of considerations:

• Lord Strahd is a vampire, a member of the undead. Such a change would undoubtedly change my personality.
• Abadar is not opposed to such an event, as evidenced by Doru. While Doru has his own faults, as we all do, he has not lost his compassion for humanity simply by virtue of becoming a vampire.